I’m
feel really grateful because I still getting a chance to live and feel this
year ramadhan. From year to year I can see changes all around me. People will
change even they stay with their stances .
Hehe it kinda funny if I flashback memory on my last year
puasa. A memories that I can’t never forget. I worked at Fuji’s company, I went
there to apply for a job. By using my diploma I tried to apply for a
technician. But they just require an operator. So I got no money, pressure is
all around my head, so I just go with a flow. I worked under AGENT that who give me a job to Fuji, my salary
suppose to be rm60 and agent take my money rm20. So my profit became rm40 per day. Are you serious?? rm40 for 12 hours?? i'm not that too desperate so i just quit.
But even i just worked for one day, i had a chance to have a conversation with old worker. i ask him "how long have you been working in here?" he tell me about "10 years" than i ask him again "why you don't want to find another job?" and he said to me "if i find another job and if i can't have one how i want to feed my wife and kid?". I was like this is kind of serious shit, don't you ever mess up when you have a family. I know when the time come i would do the same to my own family.
So back to the story, i was too fragile at that time, Don’t know what to do, i don't know actually what i want. I
keep thinking what would i become in the next year, 5 years from now? living as
a worker.i have a diploma but couldn't get a proper job. Sleep in the evening
get up at 10pm then, stay up late at night waste my time until morning. At earlier ramadhan i get caught in fever haha What a hell of a life i been live through at that time.
unmanageable life.
And that was my story about last year ramadhan. My life change within a year now. i feel really grateful. And i hope very much that i will not be back in the past. If i can turn back the time to meet me in the past, i would like to say to myself "look at you now bro, you kick'in ass man. you already went to Iceland and Amsterdam past few month. So keep fighting and i'm so proud of you (me)" hahaha
raya aidilfitri throwback :D
and if i had a chance to meet ilyas's in the future i would like to say just do better than me now brother. start your own business or get a degree or maybe get Ducati Diavel maybe hahaha XD
hehe so what you want to say to your future's or past's yourself my friend??
here for now, till me meet again. Selamat berpuasa and may allah bless all of you.
assalamualaikum~~
